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i starting to feel more unsafe now. Cause now everytime she kisses me. i feel like she fall in love with someone else. But i try my best to pretend that nothing actually happened. i blog this so that i think that this might make me feel better. And i actually felt better. i have alot of things to say, but i just don't know how to start saying or start th topic. i just feel awkward when i see her with other guys.

When she play club dance? hmm... Chat with th guys that i not knowing that person aka not close with that person.
i'm still in love with her, she told me last time she felt th same way as i'm feeling now. But why she didn't tell me in th past? i feel very disappointed in myself. i feel very useless now. Its like life is really very unfair to me... i hate my life. nobody likes their life. i believe that when i grow up. i can be a very successfully person. And i can live like every other normal people live in this world.

After posting this post, i feel alot alot alot more better. And i feel very shiok.
its like can let my heart go fang xin like that le. i felt relieved and alot better then just now.:)
So now my baby is lying down on my bed. Idk she sleeping or what. And i'm going to go accompany her now. Nor matter what happens still nobody can replace her from my point of view. Nobody can snatch her away from me. Unless she really really don't want me anymore or something like that. ya....:)
And i believe that she won't leave me. Even my heart tells me that. Should end my post here bah i guess.:)
Happy New Year~~